Who I am?

I am someone who doesn't feel pity for people even if they are in money crisis or in pain , I see such situations either as self destruction or body destruction. 
Everyone in this world is responsible for their own life , fate doesn't exist. We are in a war with people around us and somehow everyone wants to win. 
But amazing thing is that only few of us reach the war, others are tangled with societal believes,  others believe or their jobs.
My emotions are my weakness and being emotions are my power too. 
Emotions are beautiful thing to feel but they are never required when you are on a path to achieve something ( that something is that something too in uli~2  )
I love in a slight different way,  I believe we need people to make great memories, to have every moment in life with 2 × joy, even before that job ( responsibilities) comes first in my life. My love has one need or condition if I am there you should'nt need other in any form, we focus together on our different goals and we be each other's bestest friend. The feeling and comfort I provide should never be substituted by someone other, in any form , not even little. I only demand this , it isn't too much to give I guess.  I hope someday somewhere I will find my Rukmani , oh yes I am Krishna of my own story, twisted isn't it ?.
I like twisted , tangled things , with several secrets and unexplored possibilities. 
I fear losing people only when I am distracted, in pain or far far away from my duty.
I like to stay a bit longer with everything as I love old stuffs more than the new one, older the stuffs more are the memories and even more vital reason to re-choose it every time.
But sometimes older things aren't good enough as you are now more hotter than ever, wear something revealing and bodycone this time,or may be something traditional and full covered,  who knows what new dress looks more appealing. 
Older rots more , if you keep neglecting that already present stain in your relations. You avoid triggers , you neglect them again and again but one day you have to face everything,  small things can be accepted like indiscipline, ignorance, no skills,  bad temper but what about things that trigger your emotions , off course you shouldn't and you take bad decisions but at the end every time my guiding spirit helps me no matter what.
I am a fighter , I fight well when I am not driven by any of emotion.
Songs help me,,,,, to not think much and work more ,,,,, !
I am rude, heartless and a wounded tigress whenever I am onto something big , people are hurt sometimes with this behavior.
And in opposite , I am cheerful , happy , and more sweet and childish when I am off my job.
I have several dreams in my eyes , to have a big family and to make every kid capable to fight in that war, it doesn't matter who wins or who loses but at least there is a need to understand nothing comes for free.



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