A girl by her own (1)


It was great time of winter, the lone girl was a little distressed with her own self,
She wanted to run away , to never see anybody else again in the world,
She was angry with everyone for not treating her like a princess  ,
As a kid she always wished to be treated special though everyone was always fascinated by her little talents she showed as she grew up.
She was most strong among everyone,  she had different vibes, she was alone internally ever since her father death.
She , Rachel is always the one who lived in her little world, all by herself and never ever followed any worldly thing which wanted to bound her.
She is free like a bird in open sky,,
She was rejected by her relatives for being too dependent for her own life career. 
Soon then that was the time she realizes she was living a life full of misery.
She was living in oceans of lies,,
Her little world she prepared f9r herself started to shatter and scatter very soon,,

Her confused path and confused decisions made her more miserable,,
She was poor , she wasn't a princess anymore , her pride no more existed. 
She started to question her own existence, her happiness, her loved ones.
Everyone answered but Rachel was too narrow minded to process any of those higher standard things, 
She wanted to grow, she wished to change her completely.
She connected with world,  to look all possible good stuff she can grab,
She learnt lot and also learnt that she was living a life full of misery.

Too dependent on her loved one,
She soon started to know meaning for "word respect".
She soon learnt living in "solitude ".
She soon knew that her 4 years she spent were even more miserable, everything was never good enough ,she wasn't happy actually, she was dependent, pathetic being who was fighting for things to change the way she expected,,
But can anybody change, if you say you love them the way they are ?. You are digging your own grave.
Ignorance, self blabbering, insensitivity, Rachel didn't deserve to feel this whole life?
She changed,  her nature,  her thinking, her way of living, she decided to focus on her rather than anything, cause she can't change her loved one's but she can change herself, 
Rachel is 20 years old , the age where our 80% of personality and traits are shaped, 
The age, we step into adulthood and form a life of own,

Before that confused, tangled relationship never let her think anything more than quick pleasure,  dopamine.
She changed too quick in just 3 months, 
It was a miracle for her too,
Rachel controlled her body, mind and goal.
Which gave her satisfactory results. 

She focused on her totally now ..

She talked, chit chatted with every other relatives and family.

She laugh , she joke and she enjoy each moment with them.

Instead of deciding some stupid things about unknown unpredictable future she is enjoying today!!

Rachel postponed future decisions for future, 

She praise all and tell all how much she love them and care them and how much she is grateful they are with her
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She is very lovely, adorable little girl who knows how to love things with true heart.
She knows how to love her flaws, her positives and negatives.
She is more beautiful than ever with all those little scars of past that she proudly announces made her so "who she is today !! "

In next part we will talk about emotions, let's see how she enjoyed her solitude. 
And how her inner self guided her.


      Rachel 
     (My story my life)

     Sejal Garg
     (Heer)









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